phatedeath

today's just not my day.
depressing, irritating, low-progressive, frustrating...
and it's not even friday the 13th yet.
aggressive mood? oh yes.

fighting with parents about almost everything
it's easy to play the blame game
with some excuses and a finger
you could be the most righteous person

everything is my fault.
yeah, just blame me.
whoever does whatever,
just blame it on me.

so many moments i want to yell back to them
but i chose to be silent
i don't wanna fight them
though i have legitimacy.

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i'm starting to feel the pressure
of going to college

it's very different than taiwan.

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i'm in a very awkward situation
an awkward environment and surrounding
an awkward body
an awkward age
moving awkwardly
thoughts conflicting

right now,
i'm just an awkward existence.

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too much on my mind, again.
voices overlapping each other
so loud, so loud.

but i can't do anything about it
or maybe
i just don't want to do anything

just drown, quietly and peacefully...
just, like that...


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i tried to make today better
but i kept get beaten down

it's okay, maybe tomorrow,
or some other day i'll be better.

but will i be able to hope still?
i feel so depressed.


:(